Confession: “I’m Sleeping with My Cousin’s Husband”

I have a problem that I can’t talk to anyone close to me about.

I’ve been sleeping with my cousin’s husband for 9 months and I don’t know what to do. I know that I’m wrong and deceitful and will probably go to hell for it but I want this to stop now.

In the beginning I thought I was justified because she does treat him like sh*t and talk to him like a child. I thought I was showing him how he should be loved. I have some very nasty ways about me and I’m working hard to fix them.

I’ve been going to church and I know it sounds corny but I’ve been saved and when I finally gave my life to Jesus I cried and I cried for days because I’ve been living a lie for so long. I will be honest I did sleep with him twice since my salvation but I can’t do this anymore.

I don’t know how to stop it because he’s always calling me and texting and if he can’t reach me he’ll just show up to my house!!! I want this to stop and it will stop but how do I live with this secret because I refuse to break up a happy home.

I’m in desperate need of advice! Please help!